IDIOTS!

So aparently some people just don't understand that they can't come out and call a missing someone an IDIOT for taking a swim in a river like on UMPTEEN MILLION other people who have hung out near the white river. It's AWESOME that you didn't want to see a body and have closure when your friend died who you compare EVERYONE to, SOOO sorry you whitnessed your grandpa die. but DAMN STEP THE FUCK OFF! You keep calling everyone who has hope that he could be alive, idiots!... well FUCK YOU. i'm one of those idiots! I don't want another teenager from Gibson county to have a short life for one silly mistaken judgement! If you are so cold and shallow you can't dedicate 10 minutes of your time to NOT trying to make a baby and force your TOO old for you boyfriend into having kids when you don't even know what either of you want in life... to give time to someone whose friends and family could really use any and all support, then piss on you. Unfortunately i can't turn my back on family, but i pray to GOD you grow up, quick fast and in a hurry. Stop being a selfish bitch!

On a positive... I am here for you Tristan, I know it wasn't much when you and i dated sisters and we hardly scratched the surface of getting to know each other, but you are a pretty cool kid. And i wish we could go back to the Boyken house and chill and listen to the same music all over again. If you are still around i hope your way home is lit for you soon. If you're looking over us all... we love you.. You're GREATLY missed.

Move the hell on!

Ok.. seriously... dont stop speaking to me then decide to write me an apology note on facebook that really isn't apologizing for anything. I posted about this a few days ago and i've have more and more time to think... if you and CUNT FACE want to live together like lesbians in some new big city and do nothing with your lives that's great grand have a great friggin time...but neither of you could hack it here living at home with friend and family support with out whining like a fucking 2 year old kid with a hurt finger!!!!!
Don't post pics of my KIDS that you have lying around... DONT msg me... DELETE my fucking number, leave me the hell alone. I thought for maybe two seconds i could find it in my heart to understand why you guys decided that it was awesome to cal me a horrible mom, and a bad friend, and turn it all around on me... then i got some sleep, hugged my kids, and all i can think of is FUCK YOU YOU DUMB CUNTS! When you struggle and stop being two faced long enough to realize that none of your friends know the real you and if they did they'd HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS... then maybe you can come talk to me... with both of your faces in tact.. and then maybe i'll let you give me a genuine apology.. but i doubt it... My life is going places, and we may struggle to get there but at least i fucking know what real life is... I dont live in a fantasy fuckign world with little happy endings.. fuck half the time the ending is the worst part and i skip over it... but i know that it will all be ok, i dont need someone to give me the cushy answer and hand my things.

i know you cant read this and i dont really give a shit.. i'm just tired of holding onto it so i am putting it out there... and if you can read this.. GOOD. because i guess in a way you deserve to know.. but then again i deserved the respect to be treated like an adult for BEING an adult not a fucking kid running around and going all over gods green earth blowing money when i didn't have a job or money to put food on the table. But in the end, you will remember it your way and i will remember the truth.

I feel a little better
Good night to my non-existant readers

MORON MOTHERS

ok.. so today i'm miffed... i'm all for tattoos and what ever tickles your fancy... but if you post on facebook you dont have 5 fucking dollars to go park at the er when you have been making your baby suffer for a week so you could move to be close to your husband who you can only see two days a week... THEN DONT GO FUCKING GET A TATTOO A WEEK FUCKING LATER YOU DUMB CUNT! It really pisses me off when people bitch about money and bitch about money then POOF they have money and they blow it in stupid shit!!!

And while i'm ranting.... ok .. so you msged me and told me i flaked on you in our friendship. Let's see was that when YOU were getting your FACE KICKED by some whore and i didn't stop them? or when I was throwing you best friend out because i was jealous? or when I up and bailed on YOU when I decided that the BITCH i'd hated for the past year was my best friend and i was bailing on MY GOD DAUGHTERS???... HRMMMMMMM nope... swap those i and you's and see who it is that flaked my dear.... SORRY  i didnt fucking come to see you all the time when you were working or going out with the girls to frat parties when oh wait i had a fucking kid at home... I will be so fucking glad when you're both gone... and i will be so fucking glad when we get the hell out of this god for saken town. Just do me a favor, keep my name out your mouth and delete my fucking phone number.....

end rant for today..
♥

LOL!!!

SO i have an LOL moment of the day... ready?
Two people.. hated each other for at least two years, constantly talking shit about each other avoiding one another... They're now very best friends, moving to another state together, and one of them can't stand the other's kids being kids... WOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!! LOL .. GL with your double life style... one day i hope you catch on that you don't have to save people's lives just cuz you don't have one of your own.
to the other one: DEAR BITCH.. stop texting my husband telling him i keep him from doing things... and stop posting on facebook how you're soo soo soo soo glad that your first love is your husband.. then you post 2 days later on a public site that your husband controls you.. BITCH please... just cuz he'll let you be a mooch off of his military salary and be pregnant for years on end.. psh.. get over yourself.. you're not god..

Peace, Love, and back stabbing ;)

YAY ME!!

soooooooooooo aside from the only little mini rant i have about  mom's who TELL their kids what to like and what not to .. i've had a good past few days... saving money by cloth diapering my babies... woot woot!! we're 3.25 closer to something else.. not sure what yet lol but it's money in our pocket!!!

MEH!!!

sooooo i don't wanna whine.. but this whole Dentistry thing SUCKS!!! Hubby had to get work done after he got to AIT and either his mouth has been too sore to talk or the meds they gave him have knocked him out... GRRRR i just want to talk to him so we can discuss crap. Oh well, lol what's the worst that can happen, i will just make the decisions like i have been. It's not like he can find out and get mad .. he'll be gone for the next 3-4 months lol.

LONG time...

oh wow.... lol so there's a pattern in my life, avoiding people who upset me, avoiding confrentation until i'm too upset to stay calm, and avoiding doing things and not comitting to it... BUT alas, i must face reality...
this week i had someone come into my house and lecture me, telling me that i need to be easy on myself and stop beating myself up over an untidy house THEN tell me that my new project (flylady.net) which i started 3 days ago and was only home one of them, was not working for me.... THANK BITCH...
ok i feel a little better...
nothing tops stupid army girlfriends who think that they can talk shit and just say theyre sorry, or the ones who tell me i need to forgive these bitches when they dont know the whole story.. eh w.e.. i'll be meeting all new wives in 4 weeks... PSH.. they'll come and go... bad attitude but i am so over the army wife drama already!!! yay it's only going to get better...